When we finally got our camper home from the dealership, after the much drawn out purchasing process, we sat in it and looked around and when faced with the reality of the size, decided that unfortunately, it would probably not be livable. I mean, how would we do that? How could we possibly get rid of that much stuff? How could we go without having our individual offices anymore? Where would we put our guitars?
Last year, after we made our big trip to Big Bend in the Apex to shoot the Deadly Beauty music video over Thanksgiving weekend, we made an even bigger journey for Christmas. We went to Florida to visit our families. We played a couple of shows and got a bit of press while we were in Sarasota. In a lot of ways this trip seemed smaller or maybe just a bit easier because it is a drive we have done at least a dozen times. It is a relatively flat drive in comparison to that last journey. Also there were just two people in the 4Runner instead of four like when we went to Big Bend.
This time the trip to FL was different though because we were now towing our camper, more than 4000lbs and had the back of the 4Runner filled with guitars, amps and monitor speakers. Neither one of these things was new on it’s own, but the combination certainly was. This was the farthest we had ever driven with the camper. Also it was Sunny, the cat’s first big road trip! She is a trooper. I might even go as far as to say that she likes road trips.
This was a cool trip because we finally felt like we were really using the camper for the reasons that prompted us to buy an RV in the first place. We got to visit friends along the way, it kept us dry and comfortable in inclement weather, gave us and our loved ones privacy while visiting and we were even able to rehearse for our shows in the camper. So what if Rob had to put his guitar amp in the bathroom…?
Also we stayed at some really cool campgrounds! Yacht Haven, Blackwater River State Parkand my parents yard! I think I might have to start a page with my own campground rating system.
This trip was more than just a road trip to see family and play a show over the holidays. This was two weeks of living in and really getting to know our camper. This was a test! Two weeks. How would we handle it? Would we be anxious to to get home and back into a bigger space?
The result was that when we got home, we actually slept in the camper in the back yard for two nights. We decided that it absolutely would be possible to live in the camper as long as we had some sort of office. We would figure it out. We could make it work.
We started the process of shedding our belongings in mid January. We started dividing our stuff into categories.
Visually, you would have never known, but we actually did make a sizable dent. We planned to have a garage sale… We put little price tags on all of our belongings. We chickened out.
We chickened out!!!
We never got to the point where we were serious enough to tell our landlords that we were going to move out. The plan was still in the back of our minds, but it just seemed overwhelming.
You may not know this, but your stuff OWNS you! Sentimentality OWNS you! AND fear OWNS you! Well, if you are anything like us, it certainly did. Also, you probably don’t realize that you are storing stuff that is actually trash. Like, did I really need that monthly calendar from 7 years ago?
You see the thing about people like us is that we like to conserve “supplies” and “information”. We love projects, which makes us kind of hoardy because, you might need that “thing” for some kind of future project… But also, we truly want to be minimalists. We don’t want to throw something useful away and we don’t want to waste – but then here we are with this double edged sword because you end up “saving” everything that “might” be useful in the future yet the less stuff you have in the first place, the less wasteful you tend to be. Know what I mean?
I started Yoga Teacher Training in February 2012. This is not something you can do without it changing you. Additionally, I did a particularly intense program where I left home when it was still dark out and then didn’t get home until it was again, dark out. It was ten hours per day for ten days straight in Feb and then we had 3 weeks off, then did another ten hours per day for another ten days in March. The learning, the evolving, the enlightening, the hours, trying to keep my blood sugar under control with this radically different sleeping and eating schedule, it really was very exhausting…
In any case throughout this process, I learned to meditate. This was not easy for me, at first, sitting still and breathing slowly made me want to climb the walls and hyperventilate! I decided that my wanderlust was a symptom of a greater internal problem; which is that when I become settled, I become dissatisfied, and I want to take off and move. I decided that it was imperative that I make peace with myself independent of my location. I thought, “I need to find happiness where I am right now instead of constantly looking at it as something that would be waiting for me somewhere else.”
I decided that my rented home was serendipitously a perfect space for a small yoga studio on account of the massive living room and hardwood floors. I would endeavor to be content andteach yoga in the small town of Manchaca! Clearly this was the prudent thing to do. Rob and I both read the Bhagavad Gita. We were to be egoless and content with the present. We were to attend to our duty, which for me meant humbly bringing the benefits of yoga to the people of my small community. We both convinced ourselves that we had been crazy to think of moving into our travel trailer! We decided that we felt a calm and a sense of relief now with this new, and more “sensible plan.”
That is where it all ended. Until it didn’t anymore.
I am sorry to leave you with a cliff hanger like that after our Big Announcement, but you will have to continue to read my blog to find out how we got to our current present, which used to be the future, but like I said before, the future is now!